Keep on kicking

I'm back..

2009-04-22T20:28:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!

I can't believe it. I'm back from blogging. It's been centuries after I've put into some of my cranky ideas. Moving on, a month and a half to go and I'll be experiencing a new chapter of my life.

Tada.. im not going to join a sorority but I'll surely be in San Beda Law..

Hahaha. I don't look like I'm going to be a law student. I know that too.

Second thing, Geeshh.. I'm can see my flabs already.. or my big tummy :(

I want to be thin again or at least, go back to my natural figure. How i wish I could survive this diet. It's very difficult for me because I really never had an exercise for about two or three years.

That's all.. I'm so exhausted for this week.

I really really missed blogging.....

2007-01-23T23:15:00.000-08:00

hey guys. how are you? anyways, i hope you're doing fine. it's our intrams this week but then i thought that it's going to be the usual intrams we had during our high school days. I really really didn't expect that it's going to be boring but nonetheless, im happy because there's no classes. Anyways, life for me is quite steady right now. All i have to think about is my friends and family. I still don't want to commit to someone cause I want to focus on to things.

My mood now is really really weird. I want to do some stuffs which is impossible. looking back to the memories i had from the previous year, i can tell that i learned a lot from those. I did change somehow but i did regret some things which happened in my life.

For those who left me, I just want to say thank you cause you made me realize that nothing lasts forever. For those who stayed, thank you cause you helped me to become a better person. Guess this is it guys. thanks.. mwah. be safe and god bless... ÜÜÜÜÜÜ☼ -07

....

2006-12-09T04:15:00.000-08:00

UNDER RE-CONSTRUCTION!!!! sorry guys...

not in the mood.

2006-09-27T08:11:00.000-07:00

Here we go again with this non-sense of emotional ideas! hmmm....just want to clear things. Hay. I know I was quite insensitive in the feelings for others but I wasn't when it comes to my friends. What does people want so that i will prove to them that im sincere with my "sorry"? I just can't understand why they act so different..hhhmmmm....shit those people who treat me like this. Do you think I deserve this? I mean, look, I know I've done this before and you told me that i will do those things again. why can't you just give me a chance to change? right? hmmmmm.... i don't know.... i just don't know.... im speechless.....

love lots,
Ellan

heart of mine....who is she kissing...

2006-05-31T06:48:00.000-07:00

Having a lot of things to do really helps when you're trying to forget someone...This is the hardest part of letting go a person,...it suddenly kills you..,Looking into the brighter side, you're going to focus on the things you need to prioritize like studying and of course, what they said is your "passion". Almost everyone knows what's it right? well, i guess it will be a month til i get promoted and have my blackbelt....Hoooorraaaaaayyy! Finally, after 7 years, (i don't train during school days that's way it took me forever to reach my greatest dream) the hardships I had will surely repay everything....Moving on to my main topic, I'm trying put things back to normal and hoping for the one who'll be there for me....aaaaaaaaawwwww...shit...I hate this mushy statements again...It makes me want to cry...grrrrrrrrrrrrr.....I hate it when I cry...It really doesn't help me....It worsens things.....damn love! fuck that person who invented that stupid shit... why can't I be calm and I'm being bitter to this.? I mean hello....why am I so affected? maybe it's just because....I am still in love....It's not that I want to turn back time...I'm just reminiscing those days when we we're together....shit....it makes me out of control. How I wish I could be so numb so that I won't have any problems in dealing with my feelings...But then, as always, you can't call it love if you weren't hurt....aaaawwwwwwww......fuck that....hahaha.....anyways, take care alright....ciao! ciao!

rv and me

2005-11-09T18:56:00.000-08:00

me and rv

three weeks of semestral break....

2005-10-19T06:36:00.000-07:00

Hey...what's up with you? I'm quite fine yet my mind needs rest because of our training a while ago....It's a tough one but I need to think about the gold medal which I aim to have...My brother already have some...As for me, I only have reached until silver so far...Here's some few reminders about winning...
*Never give up in your goal...
*Try to focus
*Believe in yourself...Remember that you alone can make it...Others may help but
don't think people will always be there for you...Only your family can support you...
*Remind yourself that it is a challenge to be made...

Here's a song that will lighten up your day....mwah....take care guys..

Muling lalapit
Ang liwanag sa paligid
At ang tinig
Na sa akin nagsasabing
Hindi mapipigil ng mundo
Papatunayan ang pangako

Chorus: Dahil kailangan ka
Kailangang pakita natin tayo'y iba
At kahit pa
Hindi mapigil sa mundo
At sa umagang darating
Lahat ay aking kakayanin(at kahit pa ikaw lang at.....2x.. ako)
Huwag mong iisipin
Ang mga harang sa atin
At ang ihip ng hangin ay darating
Biglang titigil ang mundo
At ang lahat ay maglalaho(chorus)
Hindi ko man hawak ang panahon
Maging ang ikot ng buhay
Basta't ikaw at ikaw pa rin
Ikaw at ikaw pa rin

Chorus

WheeeW!!!

2005-09-13T00:40:00.000-07:00

for so many reasons why I have just updated my blog, I wouldn't comment on things. Actually, I'm contradicting myself in such a way my thoughts are scattered right now. I've finally the guy who makes me happy yet here comes my bestfriend and my "ex" boyfriend to block our way. Nyahahaha. Kidding. I love the person loving me despite of my imperfections in life..Looking back into my past, everyone knows that my previous one was definitely sad. Anyways, I'll just continue this some other time...take care....

UNDER RECONSTRUCTION!

2005-08-11T00:40:00.000-07:00

please be patient...thank you very much....

To begin with...

2005-07-23T08:11:00.000-07:00

I'd like to say a few words about what is happening to my life and around it...First of all, LOVE is such a STUPID word...The bf or gf thingy talks about a different kind of love...Who the hell cares about it! Actually, I've been there before but as long as you go along, it sucks your surroungdings...It's like you're in a squeezed space full of dirt around you...Sorry for the word because that is the truth...Getting up in the morning, looking at your phone and see if that special someone text you, going to bed and say those mushy lines everyday and every night....!!!! arrrrrrggggghhhh....It's such a waste of time with that routine...I can't take it anymore....Ok...I'll just get into the "real' topic...Let's say that my "ex" boyfriend has a his "ex" together again....ggrrrrrr......I've been a failure to all of my relationships but I guess, my journey isn't over...There are a lot of guys out there who's better than him...One thing's for sure...He's the first guy whom I cried even if we're not yet "gf/bf" relationship by that time...Our paradise became a nightmare and still I forgave him...Well, I can't blame myself for loving him that way....

Second topic:

Tonight is my worst day of my life...I saw the page of my crush in friendster and then...ka boom...A girl has 3 testimonials in it....And guess what, she said that he likes my crush....Arrrrgggghhh...I admit that she is prettier than me still I can't accept that she has that very long testimonials in "HIS" page...Grrrrrrrr......Thanks for reading my blog...Just visit here often and tag in my message board ok...thanks a lot...Got to go...Night...

it's been a long time since my latest entry.

2005-07-19T02:17:00.000-07:00

it's been three or four months since i haven't opened my blog...gosh..I can't believe it. Anyways, I'm proud to be single at last...Come to think of it, I've had relationship that lasted for about six months and yet after that, he had the guts to have a mutual understanding relationship with his ex-girlfriend...Boys really are bullshit...(oops! sorry...) What I mean is, he's a bull shit...First, she had this girl which also was his "ka m.u." and after we broke up, it's like this again...Arrrrgggggghhh....I mean come on girls....Wake up! These guys are fun eaters...Hello...Did you ever realize that they're just a headache in our lives? Sorry if I'm like this...It happens to be that "he" was not faithful to me....Excuse me for this unending sermons...Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr......Anyways, Thank you for everything....Goodluck na lang sa life mo! ....This is Ellan Marie Cipriano...Signing off...

Bidding good bye...

2005-04-21T00:20:00.000-07:00

Love! I hate to say this but here's the reality about it....First of all, it makes you like a person who just came out from mandaluyong...(inside)...hahahahaha....Oh my gosh, here we go again...I forgot to drink my medicine a while ago....Going back to this entry, aaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhh....I'm really fucked up about this topic! When you're the one who 's loving the person more than yourself, booomm.....The one you love suddenly tells you that he's not happy with you...I hate this feeling! I mean, why is love unfair? It doesn't give you security...It makes you wanna scream and make u not urself anymore...Hmmmmm....well, actually, it's not my loss...it's his...Thanks for those crying moments i've shared with you....It really helped me grow in becoming a better person....oh well, that's life.. * sighs*

a post once again...

2005-04-07T05:31:00.000-07:00

whew! after all the things and stuffs I've been doing for the last few days, I've finally updated this..First of all, Just want to share you about my grandparents who are staying here in our house for less than one month (hooraaayy!!!)..hahaha...Ever since I was about 6-7 years old, I wasn't close to them...Those two have their favorite child and grand son...actually, it's grand daughter...From my child hood days until now, I would consider myself as an isolated grand daughter...hahahahaha...Well, who cares...as if she's the one who gives me the things I need for my everyday living!..No! That's the worse nightmare I ever have if ever that's gonna happen...Anyways, so much na for my posts about them...They are not worthy to be posted here!!!...Am I mean or what? (bwahahahahahaha)...Moving on, college is nearly coming...I can't wait to travel all the way from Pasay to Mendiola(WheW! what a trip!)...I mean hello, come to think of it...The place where I live in is so peaceful then when it comes to my school, arrrgggghhh,...It's a disaster...Well, I'm challenged in the surroundings that I will go to...Good luck everyone! Hope to see you soon! I miss all of you guys!!! take care...mwah...

cute..

2005-03-23T07:39:00.000-08:00

Dance the night away by karchan85
Name
What you Look like
The Music	Classical

Quiz created with MemeGen!

superhero...hahahaha...

2005-03-23T07:32:00.000-08:00

Your Superhero Persona by couplandesque
Your Name
Superhero Name	Emo Kid
Super Power	Invisibility
Enemy	Hipsters
Mode Of Transportation	Unicycle
Weapon	A Stapler

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Suicide thingy...

2005-03-23T07:22:00.000-08:00

Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
Gender?
How will you commit suicide?	You will drown yourself
How many tries will it take?	93
When will you commit suicide?	August 9, 2032
What will your suicide note say?	Life is Love. Love is painful. Yet suicide is swift and sweet

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:)

2005-03-23T05:57:00.000-08:00

after so many weeks of hectic schedules, i can't wait 'til the breeze of summer finally comes in...my journey to my most awaited chapter suddenly moves faster and faster...the horizon i went has left me mourning alone...I have found my destination...And it lies in here...

Excuse my grammar for sometimes I'm having a hard time correcting it...As for now, I might not update this blog for about a week...I've got to do a lot of stuffs and my whereabouts...If you need anything or something, just don't hesitate to e-mail me ok...take care...love ya..mwah...

love lots,
-ellan

Poem

2005-03-22T23:10:00.000-08:00

Minsan, naisip ko, panu kung wala ka na?
Minsan, napanaginipan ko rin, na ika'y di na makita?
Minsan, ika'y nakita sa may hagdan.
Minsan din ika'y gustong mahagkan
Sa tuwing pagdilat ng aking mga mata
Ang tangi kng hiling ay ang makasama ka
Sa panahon na kapiling ka
Ako'y nabibighani at sumisigla
Sa bawat minsan ay may nag-iisang ikaw
Sa bawat minsan ay guston ng matanaw
Ang iyong mga ngiti na nagbibigay buhay
Ang iyong mga mata'y na nakakapanghinay
Bukas ay mamahalin pa rin kita
Bukas ay hindi mag-iiba

dedicated to someone 08

True

2005-03-22T22:46:00.000-08:00

The University of Blogging

Presents to
Ellan

An Honorary
Bachelor of
Community Promotion

Majoring in
Emo

Signed
Dr. GoQuiz.com

Blogging Degree
From Go-Quiz.com

Boredom strikes...

2005-03-22T22:15:00.000-08:00

After 10 years, I have finally updated my blog. Would you imagine that I've not put some of my silly thoughts for almost 3 months..oh well, that's how lazy I am... check this out.,..

E	Exquisite
L	Lazy
L	Legendary
A	Astounding
N	Nutty

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

Tomorrow...

2005-03-19T21:50:00.000-08:00

“There is no royal road to learning; no shortcut to the acquirement of any valuable art.”-Anthony Trollope Our journey never ends if one chapter has finally turned. A new door waits each person of what we are destined to become. No matter how many your achievements are, this you will need to know. Never forget the people who have touched your lives. They were and will always be in your heart until the end of time. One must be thankful for we are blessed to have them. In the world we live in, both challenges and trials come our way. Through the people around us, we can surpass them all. How can we ever forget the laughter and tears that we’ve shared with them? Yes, we may have some misunderstanding or “dog and cat fights” with them but this I will assure you. Live your life to the fullest. If you have the chance or opportunity to be a leader, go, grab it and express your gratitude for everyone. You may say that my words in here are “clichés”. Well, I can’t blame you for that. Everyone has their own perspectives.

Wow weeee...

2004-12-22T21:06:00.000-08:00

Hey guys. Finally, school's out...hahaha..actually, from those hectic schedule of ours this quarter, we've got two weeks to rest from school works and long tests...Anyways, how can I start this Christmas break when you've got no money? hahaha...simply just go to your room and listen to the things around you...Breathe in the air and feel its coldness and it passes through your skin...Hahahaha...ang drama..aun...About my wish list, I would like to add the following...Bigyan nio ko ng Kitchie Nadal Cd...tapos laptop na din para makachat ko kayong lahat sa room ko...hehehehe...tapos anu pa ba? 3,000 para makapunta sa EK kasama kada ko...naks..gaya gaya kay anne... di kami natuloy nung 20 kasi raming hindi pwede and lang pera....anyways, what else pa ba? Gusto ko ng bagong shoes,....hahahahaha...grabe...ang selfish ko noh...moving on, un lang po ung wishlist ko....basta...aun...Going back to my topic, our barkada went to G4 last Tuesday...then aun..wait lang....just back off muna...got to go...take care...

Spirited away....

2004-12-12T23:14:00.000-08:00

Reality has come and yet fantasy still fights along our journey...So many work to do, so little time...Despite of my hectic schedule, finally, I have updated this blog. It's been a week since I had put down my thoughts about life and stuffs....

Spirited away is about a girl named....hahahaha...Now, you can call me "Dory 2"...Kidding...actually, I know her name...Unfortunately, I easily forget names especially when I don't see the person...moving on to the movie, (oh there, you go) Chiharu (If I'm not mistaken) was leaving her home together with her parents...They were suppose to be going to their house unfortunately, Chiharu's father and mother went to a place which is very unusual...First, they thought that it was just an ordinary setting wherein no one was there...When Chiharu's parents went down to an eating place and ate up those "meat" stuffs...After 2-3 minutes, boom...Her parents turned into a pig...What a pity! anyway, I think there's a moral lesson into that movie...Be brave in anything you do and always trust yourself because only you can solve those trials and challenges that come in your way....

Wishlist...wishlist...wishlist...

2004-12-02T18:25:00.000-08:00

Finally, I've got to update this blog...well, actually, i was about to put an entry yesterday but unfortunately, i was kinda "bad trip"...moving on, I wasn't that expecting that I would have this wishlist but my classmate told me to do so...and here we go....

1. This electric guitar is what i really want to have and take note of its brand, it's fender...hmmm.....Does this guitar look familiar to you? *cute*

2. This drumset rocks my world...Come one guys, why won't you give me this as a present....:D surely, I will be delighted if this wish will be granted...

3. This is what I really wanted although it's just the tinier version, I'm contented if ever I have this on my pocket...

I know that my angels will be giving this to me, right guys? hahahaha...Take care...chow...

Let it Be...

2004-11-26T07:20:00.000-08:00

Let It Be(Lennon/McCartney)

~~~ When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom,
let it be.Let it be, let it beLet it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree
,There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted
there isStill a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
.Let it be, let it beLet it be, let it be.
Yeah there will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it beLet it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be.Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on till tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it beLet it be, let it be.
A there will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it beLet it be, let it be.
A there will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it beLet it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

Somethings are left unsaid....

2004-11-26T03:53:00.000-08:00

Hey you! Yes, I'm talking to the one who's there sitting all day or night chatting or surfing...What are you staring at? Did some one eyed creature peeped in your window? Moving on, what's your problem there? I mean, come on...You don't look good today....Did someone hurt you? Just tell me alright...or else...They will have a piece of me...Hahaha...What makes you tough isn't enough that you can shout on the highway and say "I'm the king of the world". That's really a cliche...Who would give you a hand in times of that situation? Like hello, are you nuts? No one would ever dare to touch you or even stare at you if you would do that damn thing....
Here's some advice, if the world hates you, just stay quiet and try to meditate....Surely, there's one person who will be there sitting beside you in the middle of the night. The presence of someone can only be seen whenever trouble comes. In every journey, "end" exists...

Poem I made during Physics time....

2004-11-22T01:25:00.000-08:00

Dying from sadness...

My hands try to reach out from the space within me
I hunger for happiness to conquer my pain
Life anguishes me
Tears fall to the ground

Only One

2004-11-21T01:01:00.000-08:00

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

A simple poem....

2004-11-19T07:57:00.000-08:00

Edgar Allan Poe
A Dream within a Dream

Take this kiss upon thy brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow—You are not wrong, to deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,In a vision, or in none,Is it therefore the less gone
All that we see or seemIs but a dream within a dream.I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand—How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,While I weep—while I weep!O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

Another wanna be...

2004-11-17T01:18:00.000-08:00

Back way then to our CLE class a while ago, we discussed about the eight beatitudes. Actually, our group reported about the 5th and the 6th one...We used the transparancy that our teacher made and all we had to do is explain and read it (thank God)....Then, there's this sentence which has "pure in heart" thingy and I had to give a concrete example of the beatitude. I gave the social climber incidnet. Well, not everyone really listened to me but when I opened that topic, almost everyone reacted about it... Actually, I'm spilling that there's a girl who is some sort of what I'm saying. Here's one thing, she's also my friend...Not that I'm trying to backstab her, all I want to do is to change her...I'm sure that somehow there this inner side of her that tells she's a good person...In real life, there are a lot of people are like that...(Who cares about them)...The side of the earth doesn't seem right....If there's one value that would make everything perfect, peace starts it all. Make a difference as long as you are young. Who knows, a miracle might happen with that action.